Thing 23 - Making it all work

I use social media at work and at home and it's strange how I seem to separate the 2.  At work I use Hootsuite as I found it near impossible to keep track of Twitter while working and not miss things as we work on such an old browser i was having to use the mobile version.  Pulling them together onto Hootsuite means I only have to check one place and I can keep up with where we are.  Pulling it all together there has also helped me to convince my colleagues to keep track of things while I'm not there - something which wasn't always happening before.  We have tended to stick to Facebook and Twitter mainly at work (although I've just started us on Pinterest) and it's been due to a lack of time to focus on everything.  I think it is important to work out where your audience is and focus on it rather than try to be everywhere and I will be mentioning that we need to revisit our social media strategy with an eye to what our ultimate goal with it is.  

At home, I do find it difficult to keep up with social media and I often find myself neglecting something for a while and then remembering to get back to it.  I also have a business account on some social media platforms and I really am making it my resolution next year to have a look at scheduling posts properly to really enhance my presence and properly publicise what I'm doing.

It's taken me quite a bit longer than I initially thought it would to work through all 23 things and although that's partly been lack of time it's also nature of the "things" themselves.  Some I've found fascinating, many I've found myself using as a matter of course and all have definitely peaked my interest.  There are certainly times when I've thought long and hard and possibly deeper than I've wanted to about some of the questions posed but in the end it's been such a wormhole experience and I'd like to thank the whole Rudai23 team and fellow participants for a very enjoyable few months.

Thing 22 - lets get mobile!

We've been very involved in mobile technology to a certain degree recently.  We invested in mobile devices last year and staff were trained on the use of iPads, Samsung Galaxy tablets, kindle fires, Kobo and Hudls.  The training focuses on the basic applications and the main functions of each as well as some grounding in social media.  This has allowed us to offer basic sessions helping the public get to grips with their new devices.  My team and I had been offering iPad sessions for a few years but it's been good to have an overview of different devices and to have other libraries in our authority offer these as well.  We've also been able to use these sessions to show how to use our own e-resources as we feel that as with many of these things it's far simpler to show it working than to talk about it.  

We have free wifi in all of our libraries and the use of mobile technology really has meant that we're not as aware of those using our services as we traditionally were before.  That's not a bad influence, but it does mean we need to think of other ways to approach our users than we traditionally would and so the beacon idea may well be an option we'd consider.  We have merged with customer services and some of our libraries are now within shared facilities but it hasn't been an easy task to persuade people coming into use council services to also consider libraries as having something to offer them - this might be a way to do that.

We're also always considering ways to engage with readers and I can see potential applications for Gum.  I had fun adding a plaintive request from a parent for Little Red Tractor to hide permanently to one of my son's favourite books!  It would be great to think we could have readers adding reviews to books that would be available by scanning them but I think there is a concern without moderation so it would certainly have to have careful consideration.  I can see it being hugely popular if it could be moderated in some way for the children's summer reading challenge - it would certainly increase the digital offer and interest some of our less engaged children.

Thing 21 - Infographics

PI found this quite fun!  Actually, I probably spent a bit too much time thinking about my topic and then got caught up in it so I decided to just share it without completing it or I'd still be here next year trying to decide what songs are best listened to on the bus vs those you have to belt out in the privacy of your car...

I found easy.ly quite straightforward although the app was quite annoying on my iPad so I'm looking forward to having a go on my PC at some point.  I can definitely see how information presented graphically can be a really powerful way to get your point across and I'm looking forward to trying it out at work.  I can certainly imagine sharing information with our library users in a far more interesting and engaging way.

There's definitely a risk of me getting too involved in playing with the tools though so I think I need to have all my information written out before I start.

Thing 20 - Presentations

So I'm sharing a Prezi as I've used Prezi in a very basic way a few times now and I quite like it.  I definitely haven't spent as much time exploring it as I'd like but sometimes the opportunity to use it at work can be limited through lack of internet connection.

User Services in the 21st Century was the title of the presentation to be given at an interview I attended in May 2014.  The presentation was not to the panel itself but to the team I'd be managing if I'd been the successful candidate (I wasn't but I don't think that was down to the Prezi!)

I wanted to use Prezi as I felt it was less formal than a Powerpoint and gave me more opportunity to express my personality.  I wanted to start light so I explained that one of my current roles is to lead Bookbug Sessions and suggested we all join in on a verse of Wheels on the Bus - sadly it didn't get the laugh I was looking for from the academic library staff I was presenting to.  Maybe next time I'd think twice about including something like that but I felt it was worth the chance as it's something that has worked before for me.

For me, Prezi allows me to stick to simple headlines which remind me what I want to say but without looking like a boring list of bullet points - those are the kind of presentations where I switch off as an audience member.  It can be distracting zooming about the place so I try to stick to very few basic areas and not add too many bells and whistles and I hope that as I use it more I will find a good balance.

I have a presentation to do in a few weeks and I've checked that we have internet access so I am planning to use Prezi. I've recently attended a few Power Point presentations where the bullet points have simply been read out and so I hope to avoid falling into the same trap.

Thing 19 - Keeping things legal!

Good old copyright!  It's amazing how often it comes up working in libraries.  I've never been so pleased to receive a poster for the library as the updated guidance CILIP sent out when copyright reforms in the UK were implemented.  CILIP's Copyright Guidance can be found here and the poster they produced is simple enough to relate to the majority of people coming into a public library.  We've had so many occasions where the leader of a walking group has "just popped in to copy the route from an OS map to hand out" or where crafters have wanted to copy a knitting pattern to attach to kits they're selling at fairs and we've had to explain why that isn't something we can allow.  Now, we can illustrate what "fair use" is things are far simpler.

The online world has blurred the lines quite a bit.  I often find myself called to help someone on the public computers "get rid of the mark on this picture I want to use".  Children in particular regularly search good old Google for images to add to homework projects and it's a useful point to start a conversation with them (and hopefully the adult with them) about who owns content online.

The information in Thing 19 has been very useful for me to share with staff in the library about finding Creative Commons images to use in our posters - something I don't think I'd explained well enough to them previously.  Yes it may just be for a poster for the library for a couple of weeks but has anyone taken a photo of that poster and shared it online?  For that matter, when it was put on a poster did we properly attribute it to the owner?  It may take a little longer sometimes to do what we want to do but it's important that we're setting an example and doing it right.

For the content I've created on this blog so far - certainly I have to think about how it affects me.  So far I've thought about it in terms of the image I portray as an employee but I need to think more about whether because my experiences relate to my role the content I create could be argued as being owned by my employer even though I've been careful to use my own time to work on it.

This is definitely one I need to continue to ponder.

Thing 18 Flickr and Instagram

  I'd forgotten until reading Thing 18 that we had a Flickr account.  When our Computer Services librarian retired some time ago none of us kept it going.  In reality as soon as we started a Facebook page we shared most of our photos that way and still do.  Sometimes it's difficult to maintain too many social media accounts and you have to go with the ones which are simple for everyone and most popular with users.  

So the photo I've chosen to share is actually a bit of a cheat as its one I took of my poor husband in our library mascot costume on a very hot summers day 5 years ago!  Funnily enough this was taken before we got married and he hasn't worn the costume since then - it would be interesting to know though whether the families and friends of other librarians are prevailed upon quite as much as those of mine and my colleagues!

I have an Instagram account but haven't really used it.  Again in my personal life I tend to stick to Facebook and Twitter.  I've followed a few libraries though and will be interested to see how they are sharing what they're doing.

Thing 17 Reflective Practice

So I've had a seriously long break from this and I'm trying to catch up before the deadline as I hate not finishing things!

I've decided to base my reflective post on the "Thing" I found hardest - library advocacy.  Following the Gibbs Method has actually really helped me consider how I feel about where my career is right now so it seems fitting to use this one.

I struggled a lot with Thing 14 as I said at the time.  I had difficulty deciding how I should approach it as politically the climate for libraries really isn't great right now and things where I am based have been in lots of flux.  I eventually decided to concentrate on mentioning the library advocacy I had been involved in (which was far more than I'd realised) and to make a general point about how I feel politics and austerity has affected libraries.

At the time I found it really difficult as there was a lot I wanted to say specifically about things I wish we could do more of or better at in my own role but I was very tied by being mindful of the fact that I have an employer and I have to respect my position within the organisation.  I'm quite a political person and have strong opinions and feelings on austerity politics and the effect it's had on society so it was incredibly difficult for me to generalise rather than be specific.

Looking back, it was actually a really useful exercise for me - it's important to maintain a professional approach at all times - I do everyday at work and I need to be able to do so online as well.  It was difficult to have to generalise when I realised through thinking deeply about it that I was actually having a bit of a crisis about the profession and my place in it.  It actually prompted me to think long and hard about my future career and where I want to be.  I also took a long break from this and other CPD activities while I considered it (hence the desperately trying to catch up now!). 

In reality I could have had a long rant about the things which I wish my own authority were spending more time on but I'm realistic enough to know that we can't do everything and some things have to give when budgets are constrained and as I've said it would be unprofessional to do so.

Interestingly, I attended a conference recently which restored my faith in some respects in what's happening in libraries across Scotland at least.  One of the most useful sessions I attended was led by Ian Anstice of Public Libraries News.  What he said about advocacy really chimed with how I'd been feeling and the difficulty I had with thing 14.  He reiterated that you cannot and must not campaign or  advocate publicly on issues which affect your own authority but pointed out that you can advocate and campaign on behalf of others.  

Having had time to process all of that now I'm still unsure whether my professional career will remain with libraries in the long term but I do now believe that I've identified a direction of travel and rekindled the desire to advocate on behalf of libraries and our place in society.

Thing 16 Collaboration Tools

I like Google Drive, I use it a lot for editing documents in different places and I like that I have access to it wherever I go.  It was really useful in working on my chartership when I had no printer at home.

I have also used Doodle personally to organise meet ups with friends when we needed to organise the best time and location for a number of people.

Over the years I've used google drive (or docs as was) to collaborate with others a few times and I've found it really useful to be able to work together without being in the same room.  I previously took part in the Scottish Goverment Library's 10 things course which shares all documents via collaboration tools.  I was also seconded for a term to a local secondary school and was able to see the classes use Google for education to great effect.

I do have a caveat to this though, I'm able to use collaboration tools because I do so from home.  Colleagues who wanted to take part in the 10 things course were unable to do so due to unreliable broadband at home and a refusal from our council IT department to make Google Drive available on our corporate network for security reasons.  I do believe we could use these tools very successfully in the workplace but we're currently unable to do so.

Libraries are just great because they are and why can't you all see it?!

Oh Thing 15 how you have tasked me!  I'm not suggesting that figuring out how to write about library advocacy was responsible for my migraine last week just that they ran alongside each other....

Looking at some of the campaigns mentioned it strikes me that I've been involved in lots of library advocacy throughout my career.  I took part in 2 rounds of Library Day in the Life, I organise events for National Libraries Day, I've organised and encouraged weeks in our libraries encouraging people to be photographed with signs saying what they're visiting for, I've arranged for library staff to be on commuter trains on World Book Day handing out free books, I've visited schools, workplaces and local stores across our area all to try and let people know who we are and what we do.  Each of these activities has brought in a few new users and that's great, each new person through the door is a positive result but it isn't advocating to the right people and it isn't reaching those that could benefit most.  I worry that a lot of what we do is aimed at those who are already listening, we need to be louder, we need to be everywhere and we need to be supported by politicians.

Working in the public sector means that times are hard, services are being tested and in some cases cut to the bone.  The very nature of government means that financial decisions are taken based on what is currently the concern or project of the party in power or the party trying to get reelected.  This means that services which work for the long game aren't necessarily ones that will attract support unless they can shout loudest.  I'm passionate about early literacy, our Bookbug sessions and story times work with parents to show in a fun and simple way how to encourage literacy from the very beginning.  Putting the funding into working with parents now could very well lead to savings in education, welfare or even criminal justice in future (http://www.savethechildren.org.uk/resources/online-library/ready-read-scotland) but we need to be making those arguments to the politicians in charge of funding now.

I'm still not sure how we do better at explaining to people who don't already use us what we do and why we should exist, be supported, be better funded and be used.  I know I'll be taking more time to revisit some of the things I've done so far, work out what was most successful, what wasn't, look at what others have done that has worked and just keep trying.

Catching up - again! Live Streaming, Reflective Practice, Conferences and Professional Organisations

Just when I'd caught up, events conspire again!

I caught the start of the hangout on Sunday but missed most of it due to my poorly wee boy thinking there were better uses for my iPad than what looked like a boring discussion to him!  I enjoyed what I saw and will be catching up with the recording this week.  From the bits I was able to dip in and out of I found myself getting annoyed with the technical side of it - there were definitely breaks in sound and picture which could well have been my broadband or interference from other things.  Like reading the other blog posts I found it useful and reassuring to find that other people are having a similar experience to me with keeping up with the pace and with some of the questions about how we present ourselves professionally and personally online.  I also need to check out how I watch and tweet at the same time on my iPad - as i couldn't figure out how to watch and participate simultaneously.

I have considered live streaming a couple of times for work purposes but haven't quite got round to doing it yet.  I definitely want to either live stream a class visit for a class that can't come into the library (some of our primary schools are a bit far out so they could pair up with another class in a different school to at least experience a bit of the library).  It's a plan that I've been mulling over for a few years now and I think I have a couple of teachers who'd be keen to give it a go so this may well have given me the impetus to throw caution to the wind - watch this space!

Conferences and Professional Organisations

I'm a fairly shy person naturally so although I've attended quite a few conferences now I always find them a bit difficult.  The first couple of CILIPS (Scottish division of the Chartered Insitute of Library and Information Professionals) conferences I attended I did so with a group of colleagues and really didn't venture away from them.  When I got serious about working towards chartered membership of CILIP, I joined the Scottish committee of the Career Development Group, one of the special interest groups.  It was very useful for making contacts, picking up hints and tips from other library authorities and library sectors and was really enjoyable.  My maternity leave coincided with changes to the special interest groups and at the moment I have less time outside work for these things but I am registered as a mentor for candidates working towards professional qualifications which still allows me to be involved in the wider profession and network in a different way.  Joining 23 things has been one of the ways in which I'm getting back to the profession rather than the day to day doing my job and its renewing my enthusiasm for what I do at a time when it's being eroded a lot by changes in our structure.  I've found things like attending conferences has helped in seeing how others are affected in a similar way and how they've dealt with some of the challenges.

At the last couple of conferences I've attended I've started tweeting during some of the sessions and although at first it seemed a bit alien and like I was ignoring the speakers, I found that I recalled far more of it than I thought I would.  It helped me to consider my reaction to what they were saying more than just sitting there or taking notes would.  The bonus was that I was an.e to interact with others doing the same and have a conversation about it - I hadn't anticipated that happening at all and really enjoyed it.

On reflection...

A lot of what I've said above chimes in with some of the questions for reflection - I'm struggling a bit keeping up as I have other commitments.  In reality, that's a bit of a cop out though.  I spend quite a bit of time in the evenings chatting with friends on Facebook, I could easily be using some of that time more constructively.  I am definitely a procrastinator - I'll be in the middle of something but a notification will come up that someone has tweeted or posted on Facebook or re pinned one my pins etc and I'll nip over to check it out.  So lesson one is must switch off notifications!  I'm also guilty of not finishing one thing before I move onto the next.  I'm really enjoying them all but I'm not good at instantly reading and responding, I like time to think things over before I blog.  Trouble is, I like shiny new things and when a new thing comes up I start playing with it instead!

So - thankfully, mostly caught up for now and lesson learned - switch off notifications and set aside proper time without distraction to work on things (and I don't just mean Rudai things but the other 3 or 4 things I seem to have committed to recently as well!)

Now it gets visual, that's more like it! Things 8 and 9 Curation Tools and Video

Curation Tools

I've said on an earlier thing that I'm probably more of a visual person so it's no surprise that I'm already a big Pinterest fan.  I'm @ehcarlie if anyone fancies having a look.  I tended to focus firstly on things to do with my toddler so it's arts, crafts and reading games for small children.  It's a personal thing but I realised recently that lots of it is very relevant to my work in a public library so I also have a Work board which for some reason I decided to make private - I don't know why and I'm going to address that soon.  We haven't gone down the Pinterest line at work as we haven't made the most of our other tools really but I have definite plans to use Pinterest in November for Book Week Scotland and we'll see how it goes from there.  

I'd never heard of Flipboard and I think I might have found a new obsession - I love the idea of having a magazine I've made to read when I like just of articles I'm interested in!  The bonus is I now have more space in my bookmarks on my iPad having removed the flow of saved articles I never get round to reading again.  

I've seen Storify used to sum up conferences I've attended and think it's a good tool for that.  I'd definitely have to explore it a bit further to see if there are any other uses I can find for myself - potentially events that we hold in libraries.

Video

We haven't made much use of video, mainly a few nursery rhymes from Bookbug sessions and a bit of film from local events.  The most popular we've had is sharing a story we had readers tell during Book Week Scotland.  We've done a few now and it's always good fun: 

https://m.youtube.com/watch?v=cM6h8rRhBGc

https://m.youtube.com/watch?v=cugAXjcW9l8

I definitely need to brush up on my editing skills for this year so I was really interested in options to edit on YouTube (I've only ever posted to it, not edited using it).  I'm also going to have a look at Screen-o-Matic as we've shared through the library account but mostly through my own and it would be more professional to have one platform.

Thing 7 - Podcasts

Confession time - I don't think I'm really a podcast kind of person.

I'm realising that I'm really quite visual.  I want to see images on my social media and I want to see images to go along with what I'm hearing.  It shouldn't surprise me as the only time I listen to the radio is in the car and I use music as a background mostly.

We haven't used podcasts though we did consider it at one point when we were looking into an online book group but found our council website too restrictive to use it.

I found Circulating Ideas really interesting and will check back regularly.  My experience of podcasts or at least of audio is mainly in history and archives.  I use SCRAN http://www.scran.ac.uk/ quite a lot with class visits and love the audio clips of oral history.  I can see how we maybe could use it to share some of the rhymes and songs we use for Bookbug sessions that parents don't know as well though I've shared some rhymes on YouTube from Bookbug sessions already and still think that would be my preferred medium.

Reflective Practice

I really enjoyed the reflective week.  I liked having the time to sit back, look at other blogs and find out who else was taking part and what they were saying.

From the blogs I had a chance to view I've learned a few things:

• Some people have far better looking blogs than me - the fact that I want mine to look better because of this says more about me than them!  Looking into improving the look and feel of my blog is one more thing for the to do list...
• Quite a few of us have similar feelings towards social media - do I want to put myself "out there", do I really need any more accounts, is this a new craze or will it last, how can this help me in my job?  I'm enjoying the chance to find new tools I might be able to use and I'm being choosy over wheich ones I want to sign up to, we all seem to be doing our own version of vetting a service for us personally.
• Some people have shared some great links or good articles and I've really enjoyed searching them out.  I've done a bit of reading around the subject of social media myself and am currently absorbing all I can from the brilliant Art of Social Media by Guy Kawasaki and Peg Fitzpatrick - I've borrowed mine from the library but you can buy it here http://artof.social/ - or use their great resources.  It's a really enjoyable quick guide to what works for various different platforms.

What Thing 6 didn't let me do was catch up - so I'm off to look into podcasts and video now!

Networking in a hangout!

As you can tell from the title I'm combining posts a bit here!

So to Google first.  I think librarians have a love/hate relationship with Google.  It's soul destroying when people just type a question into Google and think that's all they have to do to get an answer.  The thing is, we all do it too - can any of us really say we don't?

I've been with Google from very early on - I've had my gmail account since you had to be invited to have one.  I've used it extensively for work and embraced all the different adaptations so I use Google Drive, Google Forms and Google Docs and have used it to transfer work photos getting round the ever present barriers put in the way by our IT department (who still seem incapable of understanding that a public library is not an office!)  Recently Hangouts have been really handy as my brother has been working in Jamaica so we've been able to keep in touch that way rather than Skype.  I have Google+, I rarely use it as I find Facebook far more user friendly and just more popular and I really wouldn't be surprised if it disappears at some stage.

Online Networks
Since I've already mentioned it, I'll start with Facebook.  I have to put my hands up here and say that I reckon I'm a bit of a Facebook addict.  I've been on it for years and mainly had a policy of only being friends with people I'd actually met.  For many years I used it to keep in touch with people I already knew.  All well and good.  In November 2013 a seismic event occured and I had a baby.  As a first time mum who had been used to going to work full time and speaking to adults who had conversations back being at home was a scary experience.  I quickly found a group of like-minded individuals in women who'd also given birth around that time and there are now 170 of us in a group with around 70 of us regularly active.  It's been a lifesaver.  That experience of a group has also encouraged me to branch out and join groups for work purposes so it's been useful all round.
I also updated our Library Service Facebook page posting pictures of events, activities and general information.  We don't use it to the best of our ability and we really do need to improve on what we do so I'll be keeping a close eye out for any tips along the way.

I'm also on Twitter, personally and as our library service.  I have lists and join conversations personally and have done through our work account as well.  I like Twitter, I find out about lots of local events and news I wouldn't otherwise.  I've tweeted at a few CILIPS conferences and enjoyed joining the conversation about sessions I've been attending.  I never seem to be around for LibChat so I'm hoping I'll be able to take part in the Rudai23 chat.

My Professional Brand

I've been getting a bit behind and I think this "thing" was the reason.  I got a bit stuck here.  

I was fairly pleased with my incognito Google search.  In the main, I'm careful with my Facebook profile, I try to keep my security settings high as I keep it for personal contact.  Having a young child my Facebook is mainly filled with pictures of him and my contact with other mums - not the most professional but absolutely essential to my sanity!  My only point of concern is that my name would be connected with our work Facebook as I am one of the main contributors and Facebook does attribute page posts to personal users.

I've been on Twitter for a good few years though I'm not prolific, I tend to retweet.  I did notice that my Twitter profile picture is a baby photo so have resolved to update that ASAP.  Twitter also gave me pause for thought though.  I use Twitter at work being the main person behind our account but my personal Twitter very much reflects my politics and my passion for social justice.  In terms of professional brand, how much is this likely to affect potential employers or partnership working in future?  I'm still undecided on this, but I'd hope it wouldn't be a negative as I wouldn't want to hide who I am.

I had a LinkedIn account a few years ago but deleted it after a security issue.  I opened a new one a few months ago but didn't get round to updating it.  I've been working on it this evening but it's definitely highlighted the need to update my CV.

All in all, a difficult "thing" for me but I am starting to have an inkling of where I'd like to take my career over the next few years and professional branding is going to be crucial so it's something I'll keep working on.

So who becomes a librarian?

I spent all my childhood with my head in books.  I visited the local library every week and was never out of the school library.  I even have family who work/have worked in libraries.  I just never considered it for myself.  I went to uni straight from school not having a clue what I wanted to do so just went for a course I thought would get me a job - business studies - and hated it.  I left just before the end of my first year and went to work in financial services.  After 3 years of working to look after the interests of people with lots of money I knew it wasn't for me.  I didn't know what I wanted to do, but I wanted it to be something that contributed to wider society.  I went back to uni and came out with a 2:1 in Social Sciences.  I loved my degree, I loved studying for it, I made the best use of all the resources that were available to me and I honestly don't think I'd have passed if it haven't been for the library.  I still didn't think of becoming a librarian - slow on the uptake or just a profession not very good at shouting from the rooftops - you decide!

Just before my final exams I took advantage of an appointment with a careers advisor.  They rewrote my cv and pointed me towards some vacancy sites where I found out about graduate traineeships in libraries.  The seed was planted and I applied and was accepted for a years graduate traineeship in a university library.  In the intervening summer I worked in public libraries and that's when the penny dropped - this is what I wanted to do.

After my year in the uni, I studied for an MSc in Library and Information studies and was lucky enough to get a job in public libraries before I'd even written my thesis.  I spent 5 years behind the scenes in cataloging and acquisitions before moving front of house as a branch librarian.  I'm now in my second branch library and have just finished a secondment in a school library.  

I love public libraries, I'm passionate about what we do and feel we should and could be doing so much more.  The fact is we're a soft target for cuts but more and more is being piled on us with welfare reform.  It infuriates me that despite the vast amount of research linking early literacy to attainment and as a way out of poverty we're constantly firefighting to deal with the consequences rather than put the work in now to improve things for future generations.

Is a rant the right kind of introduction?

I'm not sure if starting with a rant is the right way to go about this, but here goes!


I'm a librarian, not that you'd know it from my job title, but I have a BA, an MSc and I'm a chartered member of CILIP.  Not many people realise that you actually need qualifications to become a librarian and sadly recently not many employers tend to value those qualifications.  As a profession we haven't been very good at shouting about the importance of what we do and it's something I personally feel I have to get better at.


My bugbear of the moment and the reason for the title of this blog is the many variations of the phrase:

"Libraries are about more than just books!"

Yes, libraries are so much more and I'll return to that in later posts but woe betide the next person who combines the words just+books in front of me!